I’ve read your post God Knows My Heart. I understand you. I understand what you’re going through, may be not the details but I’ve been there. I know how it feels to breakdown and be at somewhat lowpoint while others expect so much from you and since they arent used to how you are right now, as if you can’t be like that. It’s a phase Ish, it’s normal. Cry if you have to. If there was one thing I learned from my experience as yours now is that, not just because I trust God and knows He has a plan would make me react “as how I PERSONALLY EXPECT/OTHERS EXPECT ME to react.” We’re human. We still get hurt. We still get disappointed. We’re human and no matter how deep our faith in Him is, there will still be things that we won’t “know.” Like what you said, you don’t know what God is up to. This isn’t to justify or make an excuse but because it’s true.

I understand you and I don’t expect you to stand firmly physically. I even expect you to be on your knees in humility, openly acknowledging to yourself, to others, and to God that you don’t EXACTLY know. Despite this, I know you remain in faith. You might be shaken a little, especially in your emotions, but I know you’re grounded in faith in Jesus.

“The pruning process is always painful, but it’s always productive. You have a heavenly Father who knows what He’s doing. He’s an expert. He’s pruning you right now so you’ll bear more fruit.”

I love you, Ish. Feel free to text me if you wanna meet up. I’m always willing to listen. Maybe we could have tea or even hang out lang sa condo.

May God bless you with a heart like His!

— Ilyn Lopez

This is one of the sweetest messages I received. :’)

I met Ate Ilyn on tumblr and we discovered that we went to the same college and with the same course! She graduated last March 2011. We never really had the chance to sit for a long time and talk and share. But I am so blessed by how God moves in our sisterhood. We share thoughts, encouragements and prayer requests online, though. And messages like this can’t keep my face from smiling. :’)

God, bless her always! <3